Bloody License

Assalamualaikum.

There's only one question in my mind right now: "Bilalah aku nak dapat lesen?"

 T________T

Do I sound desperate? I know I kind of do.

I'm currently trying to relax and enjoy this 'holiday' before it ends, but I just couldn't get my mind of it. Everyday I wake up from my sleep, I'd immediately think of my 'unfinished' business.

Sometimes I wish I could go to the future, not for many years though - just about a month from now - and ask my future self questions like, "How did my JPJ test go?" or "Did I pass?" or "Have I get my license yet?"

Of course, I couldn't do that, so I'd 'pretend' as my future self and said to myself, "Yes, your JPJ test went absolutely fine" or "You pass alright" or "Yes, Nani, you got your license!" and I'd smile and be happy for my future self.

I know I sound like a complete lunatic, but that's just me, trying to calm myself.

I know I eventually will pass, I just don't know when.

Sometimes I'd see how my parents drive, especially my dad. The way he holds and controls the steering wheel and so on. He looks so calm. [Heh, ada ke orang memandu tak tenang? Saya seorang je yang tak tenang.]

I adore and respect him so much. He once told me that he got his license in the US, and I just wondered how did that go. Like, did he have any difficulties, since he was just a student back then and ugh I just respect him so much. I'd like to abroad my studies to the US too, follow his footsteps kononnya, but I also really want to go to London. :P

Eh, sudah lari tajuk.

Anyways, the young man by the counter said he'd call me to inform when is my next practice, and he still hasn't call until now. Agaknya tak ada kekosongan, mungkin?

Later I want to practice using my mum's automatic car. I just want to get used of the steering wheel. Auto pun auto lah, I'll just pretend that the clutch is there, and pretend to change the gear.

After all, if I don't practice on my own, my dad would go on and on and on every evening about my driving and he'd said, "Tu lah, orang suruh practice drive keliling ni, tak nak."

I know this post is crap, and I am sorry for that. The word 'license' is always on my mind these days.

OH, AND RESULTS WILL BE OUT NEXT WEEK! See? Punyalah fikir tentang lesen sampai lupa result SPM nak keluar dah. Parah, parah.

QTI

Assalamualaikum.

Senang cerita, test QTI tadi aku fail. Yaaaaa. Faillllllllllll.

Lima perkara asas tu pun ada yang aku lupa nak buat. Aduhaiiiiiiiii, Nani. Ruginya. D:

Bila keluar dari institut memandu tu, okey je aku bawa. Pak cik tu cakap, pergi laluan B. Okey. Aku dah mula ingat-ingat jalan nak pergi laluan B dalam kepala. Mula-mula tu okey saja. Pak cik tu pun diam saja, tak cakap pun. Kereta yang aku bawa tu pun, bermasalah sikit. Aku tekan minyak sikit, jarum meter tu naik banyak. Aku lepas minyak sikit, jarum meter tu turun sikit saja. -.-

Laluan B kena lalu kat taman perumahan. Aku pun ingatkan diri kena drive slow-slow kat taman perumahan, sebab banyak bonggol. Bila dah lepas taman perumahan, ada simpang tiga. Aku nampak ada sebuah motor tengah lalu. Aku ingatkan, bolehlah terus belok je, tak payah berhenti. Rupanya motor tu agak slow, jadi aku pun belok slow.

Kau tau apa jadi?

Kereta tu sikit lagi nak masuk parit. Haiyo haiyo haiyo haiyo. Aku memang tak suka pun simpang tiga tu. T______________T

Lepas tu pak cik tu suruh aku keluar, tukar tempat dengan dia.

Sah. Aku tahu dah. Ni mesti aku fail.

Pak cik tu pun drive la balik institut memandu. Nasib baik tak ramai orang yang ada di institut waktu tu. Kalau tak, aku nak sorok muka aku ni kat mana? T_T

Lepas keluar dari kereta, pak cik tu suruh masuk office. Dia suruh aku duduk, dia teranglah kesalahan aku satu demi satu. Aku cuma angguk saja. Lepas tu dia cakap, "Pak cik tak boleh nak bagi lulus. Esok-esok di akhirat pak cik juga yang kena jawab sebab pak cik tak amanah."

Aku angguk-angguk. Tak mengapa, pak cik, saya faham.

Pak cik tu sempat pesan, tak payah sedih-sedih, fikir positif.

Lepas balik tu, sedih jugalah. Perasaan sedih tu tetap wujud, itu memang tak boleh dinafikan. Aku berkata dalam hati, lebih baik gagal QTI, daripada gagal ujian JPJ. Betul kan? Mungkin hari ni bukan rezeki aku. Mungkin Allah nak aku berusaha lebih. QTI lain kali aku tahu apa yang perlu aku buat. :)

Lepas dah puas melepaskan kesedihan kat kucing aku, [sebab kucing aku tu asyik tengok dan meow kat aku, seolah-olah dia tahu aku sedih :)], aku pun dengan bersemangat google tentang ujian QTI ni. Kebanyakan blog yang aku baca semua lulus QTI dengan mudahnya. Nampak sangatlah aku lemah bab memandu ni kan? T______T

Tak apalah. Lepas ni aku kena hadir latihan 1 atau 2 jam, kemudian kena ambil ujian QTI lagi sekali. Nasib baik juga ujian JPJ aku minggu depan. Ada masa lagi nak practice.

Agak-agak apa reaksi pak cik yang ajar aku tu bila dengar aku gagal QTI? -_-